To put it another way: having gone about as high
up Hemingway Mountain as I could go, having realized that even at my
best I could only ever hope to be an acolyte up there, resolving never
again to commit the sin of being imitative, I stumbled back down into
the valley and came upon a little shit-hill labeled “Saunders Mountain.”
“Hmm,” I thought. “It’s so little. And it’s a shit-hill.”
Then again, that was my name on it.
This
is a big moment for any artist (this moment of combined triumph and
disappointment), when we have to decide whether to accept a work of art
that we have to admit we weren’t in control of as we made it and of
which we’re not entirely sure we approve. It is less, less than we
wanted it to be, and yet it’s more, too—it’s small and a bit pathetic,
judged against the work of the great masters, but there it is, all ours.
What
we have to do at that point, I think, is go over, sheepishly but
boldly, and stand on our shit-hill, and hope it will grow.”
― A Swim in a Pond in the Rain: In Which Four Russians Give a Master Class on Writing, Reading, and Life
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